Grin in Dismay

Feel the distress coming.
Here there are, the infected!
, they said.
Wearing mask, treating them
like ravenous corpses in need.
But behind,
ironical to see indeed.

People smirk!
They are proud to be chanced escape!
I am not as unlucky. I am living here
Ha. Ha.
Good luck guys. Have fun!

People hope!
Not for the better good,
but thinking they can be the same.
Ha. Ha.

Ha.
We live here. Confined, but forced
to take up the struggle.
Lucky you guys! I want to be like yours!

People laugh!
Due to the bizarre
The walking zombies
The infected.
Ha Ha Ha.
What a joke. Taste that!
Move out with mouth cover.
None to welcome, none to pick up.
Funny…

People smile,
mockingly. But they are not humans.
A declare of victory.
We won! We won! We have won!
Triumph! Glory! All hail to The Fallen!!!
Even the Almighty almost has no power.
As these here are sto-o-o-pid.
Ha ha ha!
How laughable. Seeing this,
they still laugh and grin.
Even in prayer,
egocentrism, indifference inundates.
Good luck for it! You may be safe,
but none is safe for you.

But who have the fervor?
Who have the passion?
Who have the ardor?
Who have the fervency?
Where are they?
One tenth.
One tenth is enough,
to move My heart, to win this war.
To end this isolation…

A list of love reflection question. truly

When you think you are in love of someone, and you feel that you want to be her partner, I suggest you ask yourself these questions before you actually utter your feeling.

1. What do you actually like about her? Is it simply her appearance?
2. Do you deserve being her partner? Will she be ashamed of you?
3. Will you restrain her interaction with other people if you become attached to her?
4. Are you willing to accept her as what she is? Will you still love her if you find out all of her bad traits?
5. Are you simply fulfilling your hunger for an attractive partner? Or do you really believe you are the best for her - at least for the time being, and thus, you take her so that she will be happy?
6. Will your 'love' be altered if, say, she get an accident and it completely destroys her good appearance?
7. What does she really want out of you?
8. Are you doing something against God's will?
9. Are you sure that you are not being shameless by wishing what is not supposed to be yours?
10. Will you hurt others if you take her? Will people truly support your relationship?
11. Are you sure she loves you truly?
12. If you do not take her, will someone just snatches it, and thus, what you can see is she being hurt?
13. Are you happy when she is happy?
14. What do you seek out of her?
15. How do you think you can make her happy?
16. Have you been so far faking your true identity in front of her?
17. Has she been so far faking her true identity to people?
18. Are you sure you can be faithful to her? Even when you then found someone twice as well-behaved and thrice as beautiful?
19. Will you willingly, truly forgive her mistakes?
20. What will your reaction be is she decides to break up? Will you still love her? Will you still be her best companion? Best friend?
21. Will you keep your secrets from her?
22. How far do you want to go in this relationship?
23. Are you sure you know her limits in relationship?
24. Are you sure you will not hurt her, and thus traumatize her of relationship for the rest of her life?
25. Are you doing this for fun? to get an experience? to learn something? or you really want this to last as long as possible, and perhaps, your first and last and forever attachment?

This sounds a trifle trivial, but actually, is important if you want to have a good relationship - I suppose.

A guess

How do you call it?
Of mine feeling about her.
Give me the answer,
and this soul shall be yours!
Take it,
as thirst would be quenched
and this sorrow ends.

I shall call it love!
NO!
Love is patient, love is kind.
Neither it is envious, boastful, and proud.
It isn't rude! It isn't self-seeking!
Never easily angered, never kept record of wrong.
It rejoices truth!
It protects! Trusts! Hopes! Perseveres! And never fails!!!
But indeed, none of that eventuates between.
Such wonder! I want it, but it will never come.

Infatuation, perhaps, sir?
NO!
If it is, why does it stay so long?
If it is, why am I prepared for the bad?
If it is, why do I not stop?
If it is, why am I not sick of it after a while?
If it REALLY is,
why have not I left her?
If it REALLY is,
why am I willing to give most-of-all?
Such difference!
If it is not, why is it so strong?

Well, call it amity!
NO! NO!
Amity does not harm.
Amity does not hurt.
Amity does not seek attention.
Amity is no jealousy.
Amity is not possessive.
Amity only seeks to bring joy.
Such hope of hers!
I know it; that my mind will fail
to know the limit.

Well well, sir. Then what is it?
Who is she anyway?
She is my friend. No.
She is my deceiver. No.
She is my queen. No.
She is the biggest liar of all times. No.
She is my all in all. No.
She is the pitfall and loophole of my life.
No.
She is the flower, I am the bee. No.
She is the snake. No.
She is my best friend. No.
She is the one toying with my feelings. No.
She is the one I really care about.
No.
She is myself.
... No.
She is my hope.

Forlorn.

Irritation,a.poem

bleh bleh, &5ef%%6en@1@w whydoiwayssk4speclattn..
i now know why u r quite lazy to answer
can u read?
yea yea yea, my fault that makes u so lazy to answer me
blah blah blah.. sorry
i now know why u r quite lazy to answer
WO WO, pretty pessimistic, but i think true

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thenignore2
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tilluhavetowaitandstaytoreply
andeventillnowustilldo
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i am uttering truth
perhapsushouldread
have u even read all????????????

no u dont!
haha,yea,nowucontonuewatching
sadsadme
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gogogowatchthefilm,dunneedtowatchfriend
uncovertheclover,covertherest

Self-potrayal

I am such A DRAB!
Such animal in street corners!
They come, teasing this slum dog!
with those unworthy notes they adore...
Low, low. Keep that, keep that!
I don't need them... I can live!
You don't need to pay me!
I will SURVIVE!

Yeah! I AM drab! So what?!
You think I can't survive with this?
Look! People ASK for my autograph.
Every week I go down the town to
give them my precious signature!
They will give me money as
my loyal fans.
Right?

I am fabulous. I AM. FAB!
Look! I have the beautiful, dull-black skies
as my forever-shelter! How wonderful!
Every time the stars twinkle,
I always sleep with my mom,
your mom, everything's. Mother!!
I am sooo fab!
The rich even give their clothes to me!
Such fame! Unimaginable.

Nigga, nigga! Ya ain't one of us!
Go away, or this black-ass fist will put
a bloody mark in yar' lil' bro!
Wow! They call me brother!
Such joy! Well, come here!
I shall serve you
with all my strength, with all my heart!

When done, I shall serve you on silver plate.

Lovesick, a response

-I was in repose, waiting,
calming myself down again..
And this is how it has gone:

What are you still waiting for?
I am waiting for tranquil wind.
The one that brings peace to me,
_to blow what makes me sooooo bored

Since when have you been waiting?
I have been waiting since the dawn.
However excruciating,
-I shall wait, wait, . . . and wait.

Why do you want to stay, still?
|I have no other choices!
She's the only antidote,
to my forever-sorrow.

Who are you then waiting for?
|I'm waiting for my missing Miss.
The one that resembles me,
the one that I want, always!

To whom I have loved truly,
truly. Truly. |True loving.

Memoir1

Haha, such a long long time before i posted this thing. 1 term! lol
ok, i will start a series of moments in my life that i will never forget, or perhaps, the ones that i dont want to forget. haha. ha.
so, yeah, this is series one:

James, the Goh and Gunawan, the first time we meet in an unforgettable 3T,
Mr Tan Weng Seng was passing around a sitting plan, I wrote James, and he wrote James 2.
haha

thats all for now