No. It's been almost 2 years since the last time I was having daily-emo, getting myself too disturbed for anything, especially my study. Anyways, the previously mentioned subject seems not to like me too much nowadays - at least a few months ago when I left Singapore. Whatever it is, it seems that I may not be able to be her friend anymore. Oh well....
Thank God that things were going on pretty great in 2010. Especially in the last-half of the year, great stuff did happen; in which by some chances and unjustified-pretensions, I found a new close friend! - at least that's what she said, which has gotten me into deep regrets on why I ever thought and pretended of getting something else from this friend, and in which I have to begrudgingly admit to myself that my efforts are futile once again.....
Well, for this time, I do not want to give up - or at least that's what I thought. Well, she wasn't exactly unaffiliated, which gets me wondering what kind of thoughts blinded me from realizing this obvious fact. Nevertheless, the further I observe, the more convinced I am that she is a rare one.
Fine...., a special one...
Anyways, it's not really about the look - although it's not so bad either, but there's something inside of her that astonishes me. There's an inner quality that I really, really cannot find too often in any other women. Well, perhaps the most attractive thing is the fact that she wants to listen; and we're kinda in the 'same frequencies' when we talk, so a conversation with her is often gratifying. But the problem is that I do not know if she just want us to be close friends.
Please don't.....
Well, somehow I find it bizarre and weird that, at certain times, my liking often grows into a strong affection, or even desperation for her. Why? Why!? Why, even until now, I still think that missing this one would seem like losing once-in-lifetime colossal amount of goodness? Is she that worth it??
PS: I do not know whether I should be happy and proud that the only thing I talk about here is girls.
I'll post something 'neutral' soon...
